Well, I was right.  The disability case has really gone to DDS.  They sent me a huge stack of questionaires to fill out!  (With a nice little note that said if I didn't return them within 15 days my case would be decided without them.)  Soooo, I spent most of yesterday filling out the first set.  Boy are they gonna be sorry they even asked because I didn't pull any punches.  After they read it they will probably not only approve my disability but have me intstitutionalized as well.  LOL!

The first set of questions referred to info about how my health condition affects my daily life.  (Boy did they get a mouthful on that one.)  The second set was about my mental state...what do they expect?  For me to say it is all roses and candy?  Well, like I said, I laid it all out on the line.  I told them, heck yeah I have mental problems because of this illness, who in the hell wouldn't???  I told them that it seemed silly for me to be answering questions on their questionaire like, "How do you respond to criticism?" when every day the question I am asking myself is, "Do I really want to live with this dehabilitating disease?"  How DID I answer their question abt critism?  I told them that I tell people to bite me and that I don't really care what they think!  That if it were possible, I would gladly allow anyone to live in this body for a day, see what it is like and then see how harshly they would judge me!!!  (I wonder if that is the answer they are looking for?  Probably not.  Oh well.)

The next part of the questionaire deals with my employment records all the way back to 1992!!!  Hello!  I can't remember most of yesterday!  Give me a break!  It will take me days to fill that one out so I am putting it off til tomorrow.  LOL.

As I have said before, I am hopeful that they approve my case but not optimistic.  I know that most cases are denied the first time so I am expecting that and will genuinely be shocked if it is approved this time.  It really would be a blessing...I have $1.32 in the bank today.

BUT THE RENT CHECK CLEARED WITHOUT BOUNCING!!!!!

I suppose that in itself is a blessing.  I barely made it by the skin of my teeth.  Oh, God, please touch their hearts as they read my case and have them approve it!  I say that prayer everyday!

Well, after finally fighting off that nast cold or flu or whatever it was, I have to start taking all of the Christmas decorations down.  I always hate that part.  The house always looks so empty afterwards.  But, it has to be done...that tree is looking really pitiful.

Ok, that's it for today.  My medicine is finally kicking in and some of my stiffness is wearing off so I can finally get up and get moving...Christmas decorations await. 

Take care and keep up the good fight!