Well, after months of struggling I have to say I have finally met someone who understands...a new friend who was kind enough to reply to my post on a message board.  I hate to say that unfortunately, she has FM and apparently suffers similiar symptoms and pain levels.  Gosh, don't you hate to meet someone under those circumstances?  Regardless, talking with her has helped me greatly over the past few days and has given me a small shred of hope that just maybe I will get through this.  I will be the first to admit that I have traveled to a dark place because of all the struggling.  Although none of that has changed just by meeting a new friend, I don't feel so alone in my struggles anymore at least and it gives me one positive thing in my life. 

I hope to start working on the site again soon and update it like I always did before.  At least until I am evicted or whatever happens.  I cannot worry myself to death anymore over it and apparently cannot control it.  What happens will happen.  If the site takes off then great.   If it doesn't then too bad.  I will be able to say that I did my best whatever happens and didn't give up.  There has to be something to say for that, right?

Still no word on the disability case.  I wrote Kay Bailey-Hutchison's office again, asking for someone to contact DDS again on my behalf, but haven't received a reply.  You know, you can only beg and plead to so many for so long before it gets the best of you.  They say they have made a decision and it is being reviewed before notification, so I have done all I can...time to let it go and face whatever they decide.  Either way, the world isn't going to stop turning.  If I have learned anything it is that.

If you have FM and are reading this I hope that I can do a better job of being more positive in the future in an effort to help in any way I can.  And if you have FM then you can certainly empathize with how I feel.  Yes, it had me down on the mat with a three count and I had lost my fight.  I cannot say that I have my fight back but I am really trying to dig out of this hole.  I really am.

Please pray for me and that the disability case is won.  That alone would help me so much.  Visit the site, refer it to your friends and if you want to participate on some level, God knows, your input would be greatly appreciated!  All comments are welcome.

Best to all and God Bless.

Tammy Elaine