After spending over an hours yesterday attempting to add html into this blog unsuccessfully, today I am just going to write.  Yesterday it kept telling me that it couldn't add my entry and then I would rewrite it with the html, preview it all and then post it only to be told it couldn't do it, so today there will be no attempt at flashy stuff.  Sorry.

My room-mate had a coughing spell that made him sick in the middle of the night last night, which woke me up and then I couldn't go back to sleep for two hours so now I am sleepless, tired and stiff...again.  On top of that the doctor called EARLY to confirm the rescheduled canceled appointment from last week for tomorrow, so I didn't get to sleep in.  (Once I am awake, I am awake - that is all there is to it.)  Sigh.  God, I wish that disability would come through.  I don't know why I keep hoping that it will though...most cases are denied anyway. 

I've been thinking about really trying to work on getting support for more research...just don't know how to go about it.  If I could get just one "Star" to pay attention...just one.  I have written Montel, Oprah, Dr. Phil, the local news stations here in Dallas and  of course, Kay-Bailey Hutchison, my state representative - all to no avail.  I just don't know what it is going to take to get someone's attention!  (And they wonder why people go "Postal".)  I bet if I pulled a gun out in the middle of her office Mrs. Hutchison and the rest of the world would notice!  Yeah, that sounds a bit radical and I don't plan on doing it, but it demonstrates the level of frustration I feel for the lack of support I am getting.  It is a shame that there is so much excess in this country and  yet people suffer so much.  The House and Senate have spent the SS surplus a dozen times over and as far as I am concerned THERE IS NO SURPLUS AS LONG AS ONE CITIZEN OF THIS COUNTRY SUFFERS AND IS DENIED SSDI!!!!!!

Notice I said specifically, "CITIZEN", not immigrant, not illegal alien...and I don't care how many kids they have!  The parties have started running ads here in Texas because the voting here has begun.  Texas is especially important for Hillary...she needs to win here bad.  So yesterday I am watching tv and this ad supporting her campaign runs...it was enough to make me nauseous!  If I hear one more candidate claim that they have supported legislation to help provide insurance for all uninsured children I am going to scream!  UH, hello you idiots, there ARE NO uninsured children in this country.  Federal and state programs mandate medicaid for all children, including the sneaky little illegal immigrant bastards that aren't even entitled to it, so I don't want to hear that crap anymore.  You want to run an ad that will get my attention?  Say that you are going to help those of us who are disabled get the damn insurance we have paid into our whole freakin' working lives and not have to wait and fight for three years to get it.  Then, you will have a chance at my vote!  I live in a state that pays to more illegals than they do natural citizens so I am not buying your lies.  I remember when I first had to quit work in October of 07', how I thought I could qualify for aid of some kind and literally counted on it to survive.  I didn't qualify for one program, not one!  And that is with having ZERO income.  ZERO!  Since I have no children in the home I don't qualify for TANF, AFDC, Food Stamps, SSI, nothing!  How can a person with ZERO income NOT Qualify for help?????  Yet I sat in the Food Stamp office for four hours and watched illegal after illegal walk away smiling, their card in hand and three-five little illegal immigrants in tow.  (And people wonder why I am so frustrated!)  And I didn't even discuss all of the whites I saw there with so many children they couldn't possibly afford them walk away with a card.  I am sitting there alone, asking for help for just myself and was refused.  The message: Either be an illegal immigrant with children, or a citizen having more children than you can support and you can get help.  You either have to be breaking the law or too stupid to use birth control to get aid.  To hell with those of us who worked our whole adult lives, raised our kids, even served our country and then just had the poor luck of getting sick.  To hell with us!  Yeah, Hillary...keep on running those ads.  Texas NEEDS you.

Ok, that's enough of the soapbox for today.  I just wish someone would listen!

Tomorrow is the big doctor's visit where I get to ask my doctor why he didn't do anything to support my disability claim, why he let my case sit in Austin for 25 days waiting for records requested from his office without sending them and why he didn't write a report and only sent in the minimal amount of information.  I already know the answers...he is a busy man, his staff overlooked the request, bla bla bla...I could give a rats ass.  The man charges me $220 for an office visit, $10 per prescription that he writes, will only give me an appointment every two months and fails to support my claim in any pro-active manner!  I need a new doctor.  I need alot of things.

Well, folks.  Go and have a great day!  The world goes on, despite cries for help and there is no room for a pity pot.  So grin and suffer your way through it.  If we can't pay the rent at the first of the month no one is going to miss a beat over it...no sense in worrying about it because it just makes the pain worse.  Just try to accomplish something in everyday that passes for the good.  The rest you can do nothing about.

Take care and May God Bless you with a pain-free day!