Well, I fould out yesterday that Allsup hasn't been and will not work on my SSI claim!  I had a serious heart to heart with them and finally just put it out there...either you work on my original claim, which was an SSI claim, file a "Letter of Hardship" for me to put a fire under this claim, and get me some help or you are fired!  I have had it and am not jumping through any more hoops for them.  They are supposed to be working for me and, like I told them, either they can get the job done and earn their 25% or another attorney in Dallas can do it, I don't care!  It makes not difference to me at all...I just want my case settled!  Since hiring Allsup in October 07' I have not been able to talk to "my representative" at all when I have called and frankly have been given incorrect information regarding my SSI claim.  Yesterday I demanded to speak to "my representative" and finally was able to.  I just told him, "Either you can do this or you can't.  If you can't I will terminate this contract and pay some other attorney the 25% to get it done.  Which is it going to be?"

I mean, let's face the facts..they aren't going to approve this case the first time around, so let's just get on with it.  Get a damn decision, file the appeal and let's move on.  They have had this case in DDS for three months now.  WE all know what the percentages are for approval.  I am expecting a denial so why not just do it so I can move on to the next step.  It's not going away.  I will push it to the end until I get it, so why not just move on in the process?  It is a disability claim not freakin' Middle East Peace you are deciding on! 

In other news...another email from the About.com FM board.  (sigh)  I get it!  I don't belong there so drop it please.  I didn't mean to "promote" my HUGE, MONEY MAKING SITE, (NOT) on your board!  I am sorry, sorry sorry!  Won't do it again.  I have been gagged and chastised, embarrassed and set straight.  Now leave me the hell alone!  This is MY TURF and I can say whatever I want...try to "gag" me here!  You don't spend ten hours a day working to provide help for others.  Your little board is all set up for you, no html to write, no responsibilty to provide quality content...in fact, the only responsibility that you have is to act like the "Posting Police", editing posts for content to ensure that noone breaks your precious rules...I am peace- out on that subject because I work too damn hard to be censored by someone like that!  You won't let me talk about one of the most important things in my life because you are afraid that you might lose a visitor and that's the problem.  On the other hand I invite all of them to visit my site where they can really help people through the FREE EXCHANGE of INFORMATION, without being gagged or edited.  I made the mistake of reaching out for help...won't do that again.

The stiffness is not too bad this morning and that's a good thing.  I went to bed late and am tired but what little bit of time I did sleep I didn't have the nightmares, so that is good too.  I hate the feeling they give me and the resulting mood that is unshakeable.  I need to call and get my Verapamil refilled because the migraines are kicking my tail without it.  I am seriously fighting a mean IBS flare so I haven't eaten much the past few days...I don't feel like what I have eaten is moving through my system and need to talk to the doctor about that next week.  I am trying really hard not to be stressed because I know it just makes it all worse but it is so hard not to be.  Between the site, the disability case, the bills and the pain it is almost impossible.  At least I think my roomate FINALLY got the message about spraying air freshner so much because he hasn't done it since.  Maybe it was all the gagging and coughing that did it.  (If not then it must have been the lung I almost coughed up!  LOL!)

I have been researching meditation, yoga and accupuncture for FM and hopfully will have enough content to add it to the site soon.  These methods of treatment seem to have good results in recent studies, although I have found some articles with conflicting results, so more research should offer up some good food for thought for the site visitors.

Well, kiddies that's it for today.  Please support the site and if you know someone with FM, please pass on the url.  Thanks for reading.

Tammy Elaine

The Ultimate Fibromyalgia Resource Center