...then I don't know what is! I forgot to call in for my triplicate for my methadone!!!!!!!!!! I just plain forgot! Now it is the weekend and I discovered this Friday afternoon at 4:04pm, which was 4 minutes after the doctor's office closed until Monday. I have five pills left, so I am taking one pill when I normally take two, and am taking it twice a day instead of three, so you can imagine the level of pain I am dealing with. God, sometimes I just wanna shoot myself for being so stupid. On top of that, Aunt Flo is in town, which serves to magnify the pain and add new ones to it. OOh, and it gets better...after weeks of absolutely no activity on the cake site, now I have an order to fill on Monday and God knows I don't feel like it, but have to because I need the damn money so badly! Just gonna have to suck it up and get through, that's all. As always, am just gonna have to suck it up. I get so tired of "just having to suck it up". Sometimes I just want to scream that I can't take it anymore!

I was on a women's group page on Yahoo the other day and in reading their posts, got so irritated that I had to leave, without joining, adding a post or anything. A woman had added a post saying that she had just been diagnosed with FM and asked if anyone knew anything about it, where she could find info, etc. The responses from the women in this group absolutely infuriated me! She was told by many that they knew someone that had FM, that they were always complaining, unreliable because they often opted out of activities because they "didn't feel well" and were "hypocondriacs". Oh God, please let me give this illness to just one of these "B's" for just one day! Just one freagin' day! I get so tired of people who don't have a clue about this disease running their mouth off about people who do and passing judgement on us! It drives me insane! I mean, if you don't have it then you don't have a bleeping clue so shut the hell up!

OK. I feel better now. (Sorry God, about the bad words.)

Work on the site continues and I have recently set up a Lens on Squidoo. Be sure and check it out, rate it and give it a boost so it will be shown in searches there. It is pretty cool and if you are into internet marketing then it is a great tool to use as "social marketing " is becoming more popular. I will put a link on the site as soon as I can on the Web Opportunities Page. It is super easy to create a Lens but you have to use a little html to jazz it up. There is plenty of help to be found though so don't be afraid to try. Squidoo U has lots of help info as well as the blog to help you with writing it. My page started out being ranked 34,034 and now in my specifc topic under health is now up in the 3000's, I cannot remember the exact figure but is is being favored by Squidoo and is now included in searches...second page under the search, which is pretty good.

In other news: It sees that the whole marketing world is upset with Google over recent decreases in earnings through AdSense and AdWords. Many think it is because of the state of the overall market in general, but some accuse Google of reducing earnings , being aware of anexpected lower quarterly earnings in order to make more profits as a company. Some are saying that the "G" in Google stands for "Greedy". LMAO! Hey, I don't get enough traffic to voice an opinion because I don't have any earnings to compare. So get on my website and change that, will ya?! LOL!

Also, eBayers are disgruntled and are preparing to strike! Word on the street is that recent policy changes by eBay leaning towards the major account holders will hurt the little guys and they are not happy about it. Reportedly, a major message board for eBayers has a post calling for a strike and has over 4000 replie, most supporting the boycott. It seems eBay has forgotten that it was Mr. Average Joe selling his no longer needed wares that built that company to where it is now. Seems now if you are not a major store owner then too bad, so sad for you. The little eBayers are now searching for alternatives to use like Amazon Auction, who unlike eBay, is more supportive to Mr. Average Joe. Good luck, little eBayers! I say go for the strike! Remind eBay who made 'em!

Well. that's it for today, Kiddies. Thanks for reading and remember to visit the site and help refer it so that it is successful, not just for me, but to help those who have FM and are searching for answers, support and help. And if you haven't posted on the Forum yet, shame on you! Let me say that again----Shame on you!

Keep up the good fight and Never give up!

Tammy Elaine