...to see if I qualify for disability for mental defects.  LOL!   I said this before, but i should pass this test with flying colors.  How could anyone expect someone who has been through what I have been through without having problems?  One day you are fine, then gradually you get sicker and sicker, the docs don't know what to do with you, until finally you shut down completely.  Yes, I am depressed and have anxiety.  Who wouldn't?  Maybe Jesus, but I don't think even he could find a viable treatment for FM!

I am not sure what this Phd. expects me to say.  I know what info will help me win my case but am not sure if I will get the opportunity to say my  piece or if I will even be able to get the words out right.  I have been a nervous wreck for over a week abt this appointment and now the day is here...in two hours, my fate will be decided.  Lord, help me!

I made the terrible mistake of mopping and waxing the kitchen and dining room floors yesterday...OMG!  My back feels like a herd of buffalo stomped across it.  I tried to put it off until I was having a really GOOD day and yesterday wasn't bad, so I went for it.  Bad mistake and I am paying for it today.

Well, I have had to start taking more of my hydro lately for the pain, along with the methadone.  Maybe the Lyrica was doing some good after all because there for a while I wasn't having to take the hydro as much. I guess the question is do I want to weigh 200 lbs and not have quite as much pain or do I want to use the hydro instead and not be overweight?  I think the hydro gets the vote.

The site is coming along slowly but surely...I just wish I could get more traffic to it.  I can sign up for AdSense and all of the other "click through" programs I want but if the site isn't getting traffic, then they do me no good.  Maybe if I win this disability case I can put just a little cash into marketing it and getting it on the search engines.  So much rides on that disability case. 

People see the website and say, "Well, if you have dementia so bad, how can you do all of that?"  The answer is simple.  I can do it because I can go back an retype all of my mistakes, spend as much time as it takes to figure something out, like adding a script or html or add content before I publish it.  It takes me twice as long as it used to to build a site and I no longer have the ability to write the html myself and have to rely on a sitebuilder instead.  I used to be so efficient in writing html and implementing add-ons to my sites...now I have to use a program to do it for me.  That is how I do it.  Some days my brain is so clowded I can't work on it at all and others I can, it just takes awhile.  It's not perfect and I don't, by any means pretend to be some big webmaster expert.  Hopefully it will still be good enough to at least run with the middle sized dogs.  LOL!

The forum hasn't seen any action in days and I am so disappointed about that.  I don't know if it just doesn't offer enough for people to join and be active or if I am just not marketing it right.  So people...PLEASE...join my forum!!!!  I know that in order for forums to be active there has to be content, but how do I build content when I can't get anyone to post on the darn thing?  It's a conundrum.

Here is the link to The Ultimate Fibromyalgia Resource Center Forum.  All visitors are welcome and encouraged to participate.  Get off of your butts people and go make a post!!!

Well, it is 0800 so I had best go get ready to go see the shrink.  I appreciate all of the prayers and support. 

Tammy Elaine