This morning I am really disoriented and woke up feeling  dizzy and shaky.  I am not sure what is going on but soemething isn't right.  I am wondering if I had another stroke during the night or something.  As I type this I am making mistakes and having to go back and correct them,  and it is like the letters aren't coming out of my head in the right order  to hit the right key.  I am not sure what is going on...

Yesterday was bad.  I couldn't get my pain under control and the night before I kept waking up after being asleep and in one positoin for whatever time I had beenn asleep and I would be so stiff that I couldn't move into another one.  It was very painful to move from one position to another.

My feet and heels feel sore and it hurts to walk on them.  What is up with that?  This is new and  I guess I will have to talk to the doc about it in Feb. when I have my nexr\t appointment. 

Great...now I am crying for no reason.  I don't know what is happenig to me.  Oh man, it feels like another strojke.    I feel like I am here but not realkly, the fog is so dense in my head.  I don't know what to do...if I go to the ER they are just gonna lugh at me and send me hom again.  It is Sunday and the noc isn't in hes office so I can't call him either.  My room-mate isn't here either so I am just sitting here alone, crying and sitiing in theisd fog.  This can't be happening again, I have to take Stewart to the hospital tomoerrow for his surgery so I have to get my stuff together.  I hate this. 

I can't think straight enogh to write anymore.  So that is all for today.  Please pray for me...this disease is killing me